window or mirror?

Yes,
yes and yes

things in me have changed;
some faded, some cleared
-- I try not to regret that; they can't be forced

I follow a pattern, just like everyone
...even if I resist
(we're addicts, all of us -- we need our kicks)
But the difference in me compared to many others is
that I don't forget
not you, not anyone

So rest assured.

but darling,
because I am so see-through
I need to be a mystery in writing