together

tonight I feel hopeful and there's joy in me
(propably due to the holidays approaching)

tap, tap, tap
...that's a song in my chest,
underneath my heart and above my belly

I let it out as I go about my chores

but it's not all happy, there's a hint of gray
I'm constantly saddened

how I hope that one day
the tap is not a song
it is a person
;or if not in me then at least to be heard in her

they're planning to decide on my life next spring
-- I'm worried they'll take it away from me
she keeps saying it'll be fine
but I don't believe her

she's younger than me, which might be the reason
;she's just not here yet, here with the rapidly aging me

yes, there are ways
-- like living in exile!
but I refuse to accept that the country I love,
my country,
would actually drive me away from my home
just to fulfill my destiny

our destiny

the sparkle of light
in all of this pain
is the undoubtable fact that she has agreed
to go throught it together with me