Words finally oozing out

First semi-detached piece of writing in a long time. Might be getting a grip, finally.
Wish me luck, it is needed.

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Lately

single phrases come to mind
none linked
- poetry is withered leaves

I lack control of my emotions
or rather
of rational thinking to put them in place
I operate with logical care, day in day out
and nothing leads to nothing

seemingly sensible to others
so why would they bother
- why is it forbidden to ask for medication?
legal, illegal substances: OK
(take a pill, or a sip, or a puff - "it's alright")
but humane pain relief: unacceptable

wrong
as if I was asking too much
as if I was to suggest immorality
"you just can't do that"

my
self
inflicted
pain
- you connect the dots.